super nanny 9-1-1

this seems to be the cover photo on the album that is our life right now.

The 2 boys are seperated at all times unless there is some major supervision.

usually eli is good for 30 seconds or so, then he gets that grin, and moves to slap sam's head or twist his little toes.

we talked to the doctor.

he said "aggression" from a 2 year old is normal, and he gave us some tips on how to deal with it. 

it is the worst -- having your big baby hit your little baby. 

i feel so conflicted - because how can i be mad at eli (even though i am)? This little screaming crying pooping being has come into his home and has NOTHING to offer him right now. All he knows is that he takes up a LOT of the attention that used to be his. 

I need super nanny.

Other news from the doctor...

i will not be taking two kids to the doctor by myself ever again.

also, eli is 31lbs and 35 inches. 

He's creeping down the growth charts now (FINALLY!) and is in the 80th percentile for weight and 70 for height.

Maybe because all he eats is chicken dipped in ranch (mostly the ranch), sometimes mac n cheese, and pb and j. 

feeding Eli is on my top 10 list of things I hate to do. 

so aggravating!

we thought we would try this picnic table from wauwau and papa.

 see why i get aggravated?

ugh.

super nanny would be ashamed of me.

Sam is doing great! He's eating like a champ and growing fast. 

Today we put him in size 1 diapers.

I am trying huggies (pure and natural) because he seems to maybe be allergic to pampers.

Pampers Sensitive diapers... which I find weird.

We'll see.

He continues to be a very easy baby --- he likes to be on his own a lot -

to sit in his bassinet and look around. He takes his naps in there too, for hours without a peep.

That Fisher Price rock and play sleeper we got is the best thing ever invented.!

He sleeps in that at night too, and we usually get anywhere from 5 hours-7 hours of consistent sleep from him before he wakes up to eat. 

And before you hate me...

a- this will probably stop TONIGHT since I blogged about it

and 

b- i think i get one big break. pregnancy and everything about it was horrible for me, from infertility to post-partum depression and this time perinatal anxiety. 

so, i'll take the good behaved baby for 100 alex. 

speaking of PPD...

this time around, i'm ok.

and i think i will stay ok.

Everyday I think, so this is what it's SUPPOSED to be like to have a newborn?!

it's great, and he's great, and our little family is great.

and i have that warm and fuzzy feeling almost all the time

(except during times like that above picture of eli standing on the table, NOT eating his dinner.)

But I'm still looking over my shoulder waiting for the anxiety to creep in.

I think it will take me a little while longer to feel safe to say I will be ok.

and if i am...

thank.you.God.

here's what's new with the boys:
Eli's new birthday rug:

he LOVES!

little Sammy hanging out on his activity mat:

he still looks at things with his eyes going cross-eyed.

but he has smiled at us a few times today and yesterday.

oh, and his hair fell out all on the top of his head, so he looks super old man-ish.

mimi is here hanging out for a few days. 

we had cake AGAIN for mine and Eli's birthday.

the weight loss begins...

tomorrow.

but tomorrow is a wednesday and who starts a diet on a wednesday?

so maybe tomorrow, but probably Sunday.