beautiful ride

I heard a song today that I have heard a hundred times before.
But today, it struck me as so true. 

Gary Allan, Life Ain't always Beautiful. 

Do you know the one?

 Life ain't always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down, it can break your heart

But the struggles makes me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has its own way of takin' its sweet time

No, life ain't always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine
Hey, life ain't always beautiful
But its a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride.

Getting pregnant, being pregnant, and being a new mom have been none of the picture perfect things I imagined when I was a teenager. 

We have had a bumpy road, and nothing that we "planned" for. 

I am such a planner.

I love to be ready for anything (I just bought 900 baby wipes today.)

But nothing could have prepared me for the way things were after Eli was born. 

And today, I am just thinking about that. OR, trying NOT to think about that. 

But I am hoping and praying we have a smooth road ahead of us once Sam gets here.

A newborn + Eli will be hectic.

I just want the "normal" craziness, not the post-partum craziness. :)

If anything, going through all this makes me appreciate my little miracles all the more. 

I can't wait to see little Sam's face, I hope he looks just like Eli.

That's it. That's the last time I (openly) worry about post-partum depression.

Did you come here to see pictures of Eli?

He is currently out of town without his momma...

but sends his best from Mogadore (where it is SNOWING!?)

I am getting somewhere with Sam's room...

here is a sneak peak.