are you my mommy?

My first Mother's Day as a mommy to TWO!

 Last night, we went to whits for some ice cream and milk shakes :

and mike reminded me just how miserable I was this time last year. 

Don't get me wrong, I have NOT forgotten... 

It's just kind of unbelievable that a whole year has passed. 

But also unbelievable that ONLY a year has passed. 

So last Mother's Day... A year ago... I didn't know and love TWO boys? How is it possible I haven't known Sam forever and ever ...because it feels that way. 

How is it that last year, I was anxious about having this "other baby" and was worried it would mess up the good thing we had with Eli. I was SURE I could only love Eli. 

Last mothers day i wanted Eli to have a brother, but I was doing this more for him than for myself. I would be ok with loving Eli tons and this new baby just a little bit. 

And then came Sam.  That "other baby". And like that old grinch... My heart grew 3 sizes that day. It really is true. 

I fell in love with Sam instantly. I love both my boys equally, (although somedays I have my favorite picked out for the day!) but the bond I have is different and unique ... and honestly I don't remember what my life was like before them. 

I know life was simple and easy and about mike and I. 

But to be a mom to these guys...

its so cliche...but it really is the TOUGHEST yet most rewarding job there is. 

and while I'm sure I'd love another (girl) ... Our hearts are pretty full around here.

Mike made Mother's Day special for me...

and we even got a night out alone this weekend. 

Happy moms day to all my mom friends ... New and old. 

Especially my best friend who happens to be an old pro and MY mom ...

And also to my other best friend who happens to be a new mom. 

There's nothing quite like it!