may twenty four

mom guilt. 

i hear it's a part of my life forever now. 

i am feeling guilty about everything.

we need eli's rocker out of his room (which he loves!) 

to put in our room for feeding Sam.

guilt. 

he wants my attention all the time (and he knows if i'm texting, or talking on my phone, or focusing on something else.)

today... 

mama sit...

oh buddy, mommy doesn't fit in that chair. 

i feel guilty that i have to leave him for 3-4 days to stay in the hospital, and then i will come home with a baby that is going to take attention away from him. 

he won't know what hit him.

AND i won't be able to pick him up. 

today i cried when i left for work because he wanted me to sit in his pool with him.

i'm ready to get this show on the road so we can all get adjusted to our new life!

And almost every one of my friends has a younger brother or sister -- and i bet not a single one of them remembers their younger sibling coming home and being jealous. 

myself included.

so i know we will all be ok. :)

35 weeks today. 

babycenter.com says today my uterus is 1000 times its original size. 

really? you don't say.