gotta pay the bills

it is finally here.

the dreaded day.

back to work.

the good new is...

i am off tuesday AND wednesday, so tomorrow is just breaking me in slowly.

i tried to soak it all in on my last weekend of summer.

suck the marrow out of life... as kelle hampton always says.

and we did.

dental floss anyone?

Eli and I went to Buckeye Lake on Saturday, just the two of us.

It's where they used to take me when Eli was a baby and I was all kinds of crazy.
just to get me out of the house.

that's not sammy

Buckeye Lake has sentimental value for me.
Sort of like ending another chapter... starting a new one.
Eli and I made it through that together, although he had no idea.
Now, here we are 2 years later, with a new little Windon.
One of us (not me!) is still having trouble adjusting.
Like every other tough thing in life, my grandma always tells me, this too, shall pass.
Until it does, the situation called for some special Eli/Mommy time.
We even ran through a sprinkler or two, splashed in the puddles.

we went to the pet store (and did not get a fish since eli thinks you shake the fish in their little plastic baggie.)

we went on walks, threw rocks (real far!) in the pond, made play dough animals, practiced all the alphabet (eli's new favorite game, "mommy tell 'em" he says... when he wants me to quiz him.)

Saturday night, we made 5 trips back and forth to fill up his bucket with rocks to throw (real far!) in the pond.
When we ran out the last time, Eli was determined he was throwing this rock in the pond.


"Sometimes, I guess there just aren't enough rocks." [forest gump]

What a summer we had!
It was hands down the best summer of my life...
Being at home with my family every single day for 3 months was a rewarding experience.
(my family?, I have a family now!)
It's hard to relinquish my duties and go to work.
I won't know how many times Eli or Sam pooped or how Eli woke up from his nap or what funny quirky things he said today. (but you know i will ask!)
I love putting Eli to bed and telling him "see you in the morning."
I have to count on Mike to soothe Sam the way his momma does, with a special rock/bounce with a pacifier and blanket on his face.

It's a good thing daddy is the best daddy ever.


It's also a good thing I like my job, because I will be happy once I get there.
And even better, wauwau will be babysitting... so I know the boys will always be in good hands.



We have so much ahead, so many memories to be made with these 2 special little boys.
But these past few months, our memories, our days together, i will treasure always.
these truly are the best days of our lives.