Evil three year old mood swings

Where are where is the instruction manual that comes with the third birthday  ? Eli is the devil. He is smarter than me and has all the control. 

I have issues with control. I have been called a control freak by friends, husband, a priest... Blah blah blah. I know. I like to be in control. Of my life, of the situation, of the day ... That is not a bad quality to possess?! 

But I have no control over Eli. None. 

I surrender. 

This boy will be spoon fed by his momma until he's twenty, in diapers and holding my hand. With juice AND milk. 

I'm mourning the loss of my sweet baby Eli.