mommy's boys

remember when...

the sound of little feet, 

was the music,

we danced to week to week?

every day i try to remind myself atleast ONCE that i'm going to blink and these boys will be grown up.

when i am feeling overwhelmed, grouchy, exhausted...

i try to think...
it won't be like this for long. 

eli is only going to want "mommy hold you" for a little bit longer.

it's already almost time for sam to give up formula. 

really? 

how does this happen so fast?

how is it already time to plan his first birthday party??

and i know i will look back and read this and he will be 5, 10, 21...and i will wish it was his first birthday all over again. 

i will miss it when sam wakes up super early for some mommy 1 on 1 time.

and eli wants me to come with him EVERYwhere.

and WATCH him do everything.

tonight i was watching him play on his (MY) iPad, eating his graham crackers in his tight little pjs and zebra slippers.
he noticed me watching him...
and he said -- WHAT are you smiling at mommy?!
those are the moments that make parenting worth it.
when you look at them and know that your life is so much better because of them.



most days there isn't a spare moment for ANYthing.

but every once in awhile i make the best of my "quiet time"...

reread old blog posts, look through old baby clothes

and it puts things back into perspective for me.

so eli will be getting two books before bed instead of one. 

and sam will be rocked to sleep a little more often.

because this is IT.

i've waited my whole life to be a mom

and i'm DOING it. 

times TWO.

it's about to be summer, maybe the best summer ever.
oh the fun we will have...